Wednesday, August 12, 2009

What's the Purpose?

I'm sure everybody asks the question at some point: "What's the purpose of life?" I ask it sometimes, too. I am LDS and I know all the Sunday School answers (get a body, have a family, show faith, live worthy), but I'm more concerned about application than anything else. I mean "get a body," check; "have a family," check; and the other concepts are so abstract.

I, like most people, try to fill my life up with good things and surround myself with good people. I get caught up in achieving good goals and work towards becoming an accomplished person. I try to keep my house clean and stay updated on Parker's scrapbook. I have even found a way to continue working part-time. But how important are these things anyway? They are all good, but are they important.

I think as members of the church, or I should say, members of the human race, we get caught up in these types of things and sometimes forget the all-important and obvious things we should be concerned about. Many LDS people can quote scriptures like there's no tomorrow, but (unfortunately) many have a hard time living the MOST important principle. Christ has taught us that the most important thing is love. Yeah, it's obvious, but it sometimes becomes a lost priority as it gets mixed up in the cares of the world.

I get so depressed when I see people being mean to each other, saying negative comments about each other, and just generally not caring about what happens to other people. We are all in this together and I can't think of a single reason to hate somebody or intentionally hurt them. Not that I'm without fault: I find myself gossiping or saying negative things, giving in to my own selfish pride. I hate that I'm not perfect in this one thing. If I could choose one thing to be perfect in, it would be love or something better than love. Charity. Christ's love.

I guess I'm getting all up on my soap box because I teach Young Women's in my ward and tonight some of the girls were talking bad about each other. I mean, come on. These are your sisters! They need your love. I realize though, that it is not just teenage girls who have this problem.

So I don't really know what I'm trying to say here. I'm just getting some thoughts out. I guess I want to say sorry to those of you who I haven't been completely there for you. I picture myself as this person who others can talk to or someone who drops off thank you letters and cookies, but I am not that person yet. I'm trying. I wish I could be that type of friend. I also want to say thank you to those of you who are that type of friend to me. I also want to say "I love you" to everyone who reads this blog. Not in a creepy sort of way, but sincerely I do. Maybe there are some random people who read this, but I doubt it. For the most part you are my friends and maybe we're not that close, but the truth is I wish we were closer and I care about you and wish the best for all of you.

I guess I'm in this place in my life where I appreciate more all the love I get, even if it is a simple smile or a phone call and I hope I can be that type of loving person too. This may sound cheesy (this whole post probably does), but I think that is the type of thing that Heavenly Father really cares about.


Tamara and Alex said...

Amen Ashley. Amen.
Well spoken, and I can totally relate.
I've been through periods over the past few years where I have been more "gung-ho" about what you're talking about: being better each day at loving others (and myself). Sadly to say, it comes and goes. There is just way too much going on and only 24 hours in a day.

I hope I'm becoming who the Lord wants me to be, and that I'm being easy for him to work with. I think we will be better at loving others one baby step at a time, even if we do take steps backward once in a while.

The best method I know of is borrowed from Alcoholics Anonymous. Wake up, and take time to pray/ponder/meditate. During that time, try and listen to what God's will is for that day. Dallin H. Oaks quoted one thing that I have a habit of forgetting in his last conference talk. He saves his life shall lose it, and he who loses his life for my sake shall find it. SO TRUE!! Yet unless I am making an honest effort to do this, I will end up putting myself first.

I think its great what you do with your blog here. It makes it unique for me to visit.

Looking forward to rock climbing in 2 weeks w/Matt, you guys are awesome!


Kakes said...

I totally agree! Life is to short to be mean (or at least to share it with someone mean).