Saturday, February 15, 2014
And why am I returning? This blog will now be my gift to me. Honestly, I have been having a hard time lately. I have three kids and I love them more than anything, but they have sucked my soul dry. Too harsh? Ok, let me rephrase. I have given them every ounce of myself and I feel like there isn't anything left ... that isn't better is it? I am trying to make more time for myself and one thing I would like to do is write, just a chance to use my mind in a more intellectually creative way (not that figuring out how to get my son to poop in the potty doesn't get the creative juices flowing).
I feel like I need to explain...I love my children more than anything and wouldn't change any of my decisions leading up to this life if it were possible (well, maybe I would have told my pregnant self that going crazy on pizza probably isn't a good idea). This job of motherhood is just incredibly difficult. Some days it feels like I'm perpetually repeating myself a la "Groundhog Day." Fortunately, the monotony is peppered with moments of such unbelievable emotional fulfillment that I can't remember why I would ever complain. Moments so heartbreakingly perfect that it completely overcompensates for the hours I spend cleaning up bodily fluids (Two potty references in one blog post...too much?).
So here I am, writing about any darn thing that comes into my mind and you know what? It's nice.